This life has been shaped by many threads, each ultimately revealing the ever-changing, and transparent nature of life and identity. Over time, they’ve gradually softened the grip of fixed ideas—whether rooted in form or formlessness. Alongside this unfolding, they’ve illuminated the deep importance of lovingly tending to our humanity, and nurturing its healing with patience, compassion, and an open heart.

​Some of the threads that have woven this life: Being born prematurely, and the impact on the delicate beginnings of a nervous system in this world. Over a hundred psychedelic journeys as a teenager, exploring not only hallucinogens—including research chemicals—but also the profound landscapes of the mind and spirit. A simultaneous near-death traumatic drowning experience, kundalini awakening, and awakening to the emptiness at the root of experience, identity, and being, over twenty years ago as a teenager without any context or understanding, leaving behind confusion, energetic overwhelm, and struggles with addiction. The deep pain and shadow of a seven-year opiate addiction - an attempt to numb the openness, and raw energy of the near death experience, and unhealed trauma within the system. Seventeen years of recovery from addiction, learning to honor the gifts hidden in the depths of suffering, and writing an award-winning book that explores the tender intersections of addiction, trauma, and healing.

Many wilderness expeditions, walking and paddling through the untamed beauty of the earth, helping the body slowly remember what it means to feel at home in the world. A doctorate in applied physics, exploring the mysteries of light at the smallest time scales, followed by two decades of research into ultrafast and quantum physics. Co-founding an ag-tech company committed to creating sustainable agriculture, a vision for a thriving planet.

Diving deep into long silent meditation retreats and a series of awakenings, gradually finding clarity and understanding of the turbulent openings as a teenager. The challenges of spiritual addiction, spiritual trauma, and the humbling, sober path of recovery from the chase for formlessness, and spirituality. A two-year unexpected immersion into the depths of transpersonal terror and madness, thrust into realms defying comprehension, and without guidepost or orientation for understanding.

The incomprehensible joys of fatherhood, marriage, and the healthy challenge of career. Living life fully with family and friends. The honor of walking alongside others on their healing journeys, as a mental health therapist offering presence and care. A meditation teacher and non-dual mentor.

​Each thread—some dark, some light—woven into a rich, deeply human tapestry.